This is me

"It's amazing how when we eat healthy we are motivated to work out. However, when we eat like crap we just want to sit on the couch and feel like crap."
-Suzi Hardy

This has been a rough year. Why you ask? You mean you don't see every single Facebook post I have? Well, I had to finally throw in the towel and accept that I probably wouldn't ever get pregnant. Crappy. I had and adoption fall through. Crappy. To top it all off and make every little situation in my life worse, I was working in a job that was very stressful and taking a really big toll on me in my mental state and my body. There were just a lot of ups and downs. Is it 2015 yet?

For the point of the lesson, let's focus on my downs. Because I have been down.

I remember two very specific days in this year:

One was in April sometime. I was laying in bed on my day off. It was like 2:00 in the afternoon. I had started some laundry in our small washing machine that sprays water everywhere if you don't take immediate action when needed. That time came, the washer needed me and water was going everywhere. I did not even have enough will to get out of bed to stop it. I just wanted to lay and bed and let my house flood while I sat and wallowed in self pity.

The other was a few months after that. I was sitting on my couch after some grocery shopping. I knew I needed to get up and do some things around the house and get other things accomplished, besides watching an awesome amount of TV, but didn't have the will to peel myself off the couch and GO!

These two points are important. Not because of how I felt and how pathetic I was being but because of the actions I took after I realized how I was feeling and how unhealthy that thinking was. 

Let's start with the first day, kids:
So here I am laying on my bed, water is getting everywhere in the bathroom and I'm sad. I know I have to turn the water off and I know this is my lowest of lows and I didn't want to feel that way anymore. That day was the tail end of some pretty depressed feelings. So, knowing that Michael would shoot me dead if I didn't get up and turn off the water, I told myself that all I would have to do is get up and turn off the water. Then, I could then go back to being on the bed as a pathetic slob. So I got up turned off the water (the washing machine is in my bathroom when in motion-this is important so you don't think I'm just weird) and sat down on the toilet. Not like going to the bathroom. Gross. Like the toilet seat was closed and I just plopped myself down on it just to sit. I happened to have my phone and opened Facebook. Because what else do you do when you're really depressed besides look at other people's "social network lives" and wish you had them. I  saw a friend had posted that she was going to do the "100 days happy" challenge. Remember that annoying challenge I did that you were all sick of? Huh? Huh? Well, it had purpose people. I decided to take on the challenge because I needed to find things to be happy about. Even on the crappiest of days I needed a reason to be happy. I took the challenge then and there (glamorous settings...I know) and got up and did some more house cleaning and even made dinner.

Now we are moving on the next that I spoke of: 
(Recap, I'm sitting on the couch refusing to get up. It's a pretty picture.)
I knew that by the end of that day I would need something to be happy about. I "had" to post something on my Instagram that showed I was happy about something. There I sat wondering what I had to be happy about. Nothing. Life sucks. I was sitting and thinking and realized that thinking like that would get me nowhere. I needed to do something that would make me happy and, at the same time, get me motivated to keep moving forward.
*Side note: "Keep Moving Forward" is mine and Michael's family motto. Have you seen Meet the Robinson's? No? Go and watch it and you will understand.
So, I decided to go running. I love to run and it always gets me motivated to do the next task. Keep in mind it wasn't like, "YAY I WILL RUN NOW BECAUSE THAT SOUNDS GREAT!!!" No, it was "Get up and go running you will feel better. Um no. Go to hell peppy girl. Go Luanne. No. Don't be fat. I want to be fat. When I'm fat I can eat whatever I want and I want Chick-Fil-A. Keep Moving Forward, LuLu. Oh you would use that..."
This went on for about 30 minutes to an hour. But I finally did it. I just got up and went running.

I said this was a lesson, right? So, class, what is the same about the two situations? 

I TOOK ACTION. 

I changed my mindset (which wasn't easy) and moved. In one situation I decided to find happiness in each day (nourishment for the mind). In the other I decided to exercise (nourishment for the body).  

From there I decided to (1) start eating better, (2) exercise regularly and (3) find something great about each day.

My life has drastically changed for the better when I applied all three of these things to it. It's not always easy and often I take huge steps back but I don't drag myself down. Instead I just do my best to do better the next time, next day or let's be honest, the next week.

Now, how does this apply to this specific blog...

I am one month away from officially starting my training for a full marathon I am running in January. I am 10 pounds away from being my ideal weight. I have been 10 pounds away from my ideal weight for a while. I just need an extra push to get me to where I need to and want to be. So, I'm taking a Beachbody 30 day challenge. Starting today. Here are my before pictures:

Sexy. I know.
I will be posting once a week to talk about my weekly activity, how I'm feeling, and what progress I have made. I'm challenging myself and I'm excited about it. I am still struggling with the adoption not going through and now that I am unemployed I have a whole new set of woes coming my way. I need to use my "rule of three" to get me through this struggling time. Because there is no better time than now.

I am excited to see my progress and see where I am in just 30 days.

If you have any questions or would like to know more information about what I am doing just message me on Facebook or shoot me an email!
www.beachbodycoach.com/luannerose